Reason To Love Somebody

I miss you . . 

I love you . . 
BECAUSE you loved me back there 
BECAUSE you were the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my entire life back there 
BECAUSE you were my only hope back there 
BECAUSE you were always support me when I'm in a despair back there 
BECAUSE you . . . . 
BECAUSE you . . . . 
BECAUSE you . . . . 
so many REASONS to love you BACK THERE . . . . . 

BUT THAT WAS "BACK THERE" . . . 

Now . . 
I'm here . . Alone . . 

And you're there . . 
already with someone else . 
Maybe . . 
Just Maybe . . 
with SEVERAL someone elses . . . 

Now . When I need you . When I'm in the darkest hell in my life . 
I tried to kill myself because I can't take it anymore . Nobody can feel the pain I'm going through at that time . . Not even you . 
You never be there for me . 
I don't know why ? 
I don't know what mistake I have done until I deserve this . 
I tried several times to make a contact with you . But you just . . . unreached . . . 

Now I don't care about you ! 
You don't care about me ! 

I've found someone . 
Someone that I'll try my best just to see another day . just to see her presence . just her presence is enough for me to stand tall and face this world . and its problems . 
I tried to ignore this feeling . I told myself that I can't be together with her . 
But the more I tell myself the more I realize something . 

That's right . . 
I admit that I love her . 
I don't know about her feeling . 
But it's okay to stay like this . 

And you know what ? 
this time is different . . 

I Love Her without any REASON . . . . . .